Lyrically
Inclined
To spit a rhyme
N loose my mind
With all the sh*t
I can say bout u

Fragilely
Able
To fall apart
And blame
All on u

Classically
Designed
To not unwind
My twine 
In front of u

Ultimately
Capable to 
Beautifully
Destroy all you do
Including u

Disturbingly
Strong and sane
Despite the craziness
You put me through

Patiently waiting
Wanting, anticipating 
The day you will
Love me like I you

Murders Mysteriously
Hearts you will never keep
Loves you will always loose
No good will come from you

I am mentally and emotionally

Unstable

To be able

To deal

As we proceed

With the life we lead

Even though things seem like they are swell

I am not at all doing well

I can't pretend to not see

The things you are doing to me

And you continue to think

With each time your eye blinks

That there is nothing

Wrong that you are doin

While inside of me, I am ruined

Emotionally and mentally

I am about to have a nervous breakdown

From the stress you cause being and not being around

Mat'a fact I am ill

For this kinda sick there is just no pill

I don't know anymore

How to be

With out the one I adore

I wish I knew someone

Or something that can help me

Shut this chapter, and close love's door

That blew open in the midst of put hurricane

There HAS to be a way

To make things go back to being the same

Can anyone out there

Listen to my pains and fears

Help me to understand

Why he can't be my husband

I can't focus

Without us

No matter how you calculate

All the things you can speculate

I can't concentrate

While he manipulates

And takes my love for sake

I have to dissect

Everything and then inspect

All he projects

Just to see

If he can be true to me

I don't trust

Motives behind his actions, thoughts, words and lust

I am left here with disgust

Over this thing called love

I.C.U.

Here in your skin

I.C.U.

The terror that lies within

I.C.U.

The countless days, the hard fears, the struggle

I.C.U.

I think of all the things I could have done to help

All the pain I could have taken away

All the while you were there wanting help

All the things that you have dealt...with

I.C.U.

Praying on and on to the Father

Wishing that somehow someway He would take away the pain

I felt it all every second with you

I.C.U.

Hoping that He would stop that devil from resting in the soul of the one you love, chanting and rebuking out the sin that causes so much...sorrow in your home.

I.C.U.

I wish that I could have done more in your life to have eased the strife

That you faced on and on in your everyday life

I needed you to know that from with in, I am here and I know what you go through

I.C.U.

I am just so sad today that all the brokenness you heart has felt day after day, year after year, tear after tear and fear and fear,

That now I am visiting you and your broken heart in the

I.C.U.

Wishing and wanting hoping and praying that the one you love would somehow miraculously show up and be everything you wanted him to and do it all because they love you with all their heart and soul and not make you feel like some little hoe

No matter what you do or say or feel, even now as it has been killing you,

I am sad today

You body couldn't take it anymore

So I died in the

I.C.U.